Informant38

People have been kind:
Chris Locke
Frank Paynter
Sheila Lennon
Barry Pike ?
and large-hearted Tom Matrullo.
Thank you, fellow humans.
The problem isn't so much bad luck or artificially induced karma, but my inability to groove with the economy on its terms. This is what happens when you don't participate adequately. There's a smug heart to it all that repels me, but that's getting its ass handed to it now across the board.
Here we all are watching the fluttering bits of information precipitate. What does the world look like today. Tomorrow. There I was comfortable and now am not. How many others just like that. Hard work and plenty of it. Stubborn refusal to compromise means you stick out, they like it when you do cause you can be beaten down and that's fun. Jesus at the bottom of the pile, or near it. But we all have to eat. Where does the food come from? How to extend the line of living.
And then medical disaster. Or are those integral, do they fit together somehow, the necessities of health all patented and copyright and my goodness that's a lot of money.
What I need is a job. Lots of people in that boat now. And any sense of my own pathetic condition is modulated completely by the sight and knowledge of whole families with young kids slipping off the shrinking edge of the common endeavor.
Humility's in the cards, but assertion, you have to insist on the rightness of your own being or the dark will eat you.
Maybe I could get a job at this office.