Informant38

concept of the day:
the self, aware.

the mystery of the self. not the cosmic what am I, who, and what am I doing, but the center of consciousness, the thing at the heart of percieving. What is that? How come it's there? The science boys have no rational explanation for it. The monitor/CPU configuration doesn't get it. From the outside yes that a system this complex would need some kind of brain some kind of center. but that doesn't explain the MEness, the I AM HERE part. I was standing in the kitchen waiting for the water to boil and I felt it again, like the old days, that spark of thrilling rightness, the ineluctable, irreducible, unnameable thereness of here. Me. Now. I can't explain it except as fragmented God. Pieces broken off, trying to become whole again. Or gathering in from the last big bang? I have no firm theory. But like the micro-infinite, it gooses my bean.